God is in the Details

About 6 months after Logan died I met another loss mama a couple years further in her journey. She told me to keep looking for…

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Capture Your Grief

Over the last 2 years I've known October as Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness month. This year the milestone of this month came in like…

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Pregnancy and Grief Collide

With this pregnancy I am all too aware that I have no guarantee this will turn out any differently than our last two. Knowing that I am absolutely not in control over any part of each day of this pregnancy. Being all too aware of this lack of control gives me moments of anxiety, joy, excitement, confusion and grief. It's so hard to explain to someone who hasn't gone through a pregnancy loss and understood these emotions. It's really reassuring to have a loss community of friends who remind me I'm not actually crazy, I'm just pregnant and grieving and they have to co-exist.

Grace upon grace

Please give me grace for where I am each day. Please forgive me when I flake out on plans because I just found a little sock and have now been crying on the floor for 20 minutes. Give me grace when I'm too afraid to let my living children out of my sight when you offer to babysit.