October is part of my favorite and also gut punches when I see it coming on the calendar. The thought of resting time coming, sweatshirts, leaves and the crispness it fills me with just joy. And then I also know, yup it’s coming again. This is the month my feed gets filled with all my […]
Recently I’ve watched a friend walk through some deep waters. I’ve seen the posts on Facebook posting updates on the situation and each day I see the “How can I help”. Here’s the thing the person going through whatever grief and struggle you are asking for is the last person who needs one more thing […]
Even though I thought that we had been careful with our budget and that our Christmas bonus would have easily paid off any other end of year expenses. When the month was over and I really analyzed what we’d spent I’d realized that our bonus was gone, but looking around we couldn’t really pin point on what it had gone on.
The stockings were hung by the chimney with care. But what to fill with the one who is not here? The lonely stocking meant to be filled with excitement and childhood wonder.
I love going back to look at this photo! It is something I tell myself almost everyday! You can do hard things, you can do amazing things! . I want my kids to know that they are so capable of big dreams. More than what their career and jobs will look like one day in […]
Just your Monday PSA, that no one has it all figured out. That awesome blogger who has her kids hair combed and smiling at the camera with a fresh “homemade dinner” probably has a pile of dishes next to the camera and a million out with kids having meltdowns! . That mom who is managing […]
I’m Sara, and as long as I could remember I have thought about the excitement of becoming a mama. Taking this journey has made my heart swell. July 26, 2016 this little guy was born and forever changed everything. I am more grateful than anything that I get to share his 14.5 hours of life […]
It’s hard to see you as 3 and doing so much yourself. Last night I held your bear and it felt so light compared to how big your baby sister has grown. Logan you continue to make me so proud to be your mama.
Tonight Talking to Allie these past few days about how Logan is turning 3, it hit me how much 3 hurts. I mean I know by now this is hard, but 3 is an age that I just loved. . It’s almost how old Allie was when Logan was born. It’s an age where they […]
This week has been a blur of doing a million summer memories, spending time together and also a time where we know our hearts are starting to feel heavier. There’s a 3 year old we aren’t going to be throwing your “traditional” birthday party for. Mostly because there’s no 3 year old boy to blow […]
If you saw my stories yesterday, you saw what a swollen mess my eyes were. It seriously was so swollen I had to focus to just keep my eye 👁 open it was so swollen! ⠀⠀ . But in less than 24 hours I no longer am swollen and here’s a few of the combo […]
I may not be the the best room mom. The mom who has homemade snacks ready at all times. I may say we’re having chicken nuggets for the 4th night in a row, because sometimes I just value the silence and a kid who actually eats something. ⠀⠀ . But when we’re playing at a […]
I remember staring at the wall of the shower as the water poured over me. Arguing with God that I had already given him my son. Why did he take my Hope too? ⠀⠀ Why was I suffering and losing another child? I talk so much about Logan, but 2 years ago I walked into […]
5 years ago, I have a vivid memory of wiping my oldest high chair down with Lysol and then putting her puffs on there for her to eat. ⠀⠀ The Lysol was still wet and the puffs were wet before even getting inside her mouth 🤢 and I thought I was being healthy for her! […]
Is #transformationtuesday still a thing people do? I guess I see lots of posts of people at the gym and their physical body progress when they use this hashtag! Here’s mine… ⠀⠀ I have transformed from a shy girl who once had posters of Hanson and N’Sync lining her bedroom walls. A girl who didn’t […]
What a strange day this is. I think it’s usually full of expectations that rarely are all fulfilled. A day that’s hard for women waiting to be moms, wanting all her kids in a picture, babies that weren’t big enough to hold. If you are missing your child, longing for one wanting this day to […]
Looking at them makes me want to celebrate and smile. So many times I felt like I see other families that have a child and have a new pregnancy and they either totally disappear from social media or they only talk about the new baby. ⠀⠀ Allison is struggling with not being the only kid […]
How has 8 months gone by so fast? Joanna you bring so much sunshine my rainbow girl! You seem happy just to be apart of the action and want so badly to crawl and keep up with those big kids. Selfishly I’d be happy if you stayed in this stage of moms my favorite person […]
I remember as a kid hearing from my pastor that he loved Easter 🐣 more than Christmas 🎄 as a kid I together was crazy! Who would pick hard boiled eggs over presents????? ⠀⠀ Since understanding loss and longing for heaven I appreciate this time so much differently than I did before. I understand the […]
Can I tell you what I’ve been really awesome at doing this week……talking to myself like I’m dirt. ⠀⠀ I mean things that if I heard come out of my daughters mouth I’d be saying “excuse me? Go clean your mouth and try that again because that’s not how I’ve raised you!” ⠀⠀ I have […]