Motherhood Confessions

Can I tell you what I’ve been really awesome at doing this week……talking to myself like I’m dirt.

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I mean things that if I heard come out of my daughters mouth I’d be saying “excuse me? Go clean your mouth and try that again because that’s not how I’ve raised you!”

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I have basically been treating myself as a punching bag! Saying I’m not good enough. I’m a failure. I’m undeserving of love. I’ll never be who I was.

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A lot of this I know enough now to recognize as grief taking up its space in my heart and reminding me it’s my constant companion. Part of it is exhaustion. Part of it is just motherhood is hard and all mama’s know the guilt trips we give can be epic!

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I’ve talked to stay at home moms, 9-5 office moms, working from home moms, we all think we’re not doing enough and it is a lie we all believe. Because we know we want to try to do it all.

The truth is we are all only human. We are not the same people we were in years before kids and knowing what exhausted really means! I wouldn’t go back to being that girl. She had a big heart ❤️ but she was so also so clueless.

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My fellow moms whether we’ve met in person or not thankful for you! You remind me when I’m down of how amazing myself and my kids are! You remind me I’m not alone and it takes a village. You remind me I’m not crazy I’m grieving!

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Published by Beyondthewillows

I'm a wife, mother to two incredible children. One on Earth and one in heaven.

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