Sometimes parenting both kids on heaven and Earth is so hard. I know Logan is still with us, but the grief isn’t the same grief that was so at the forefront 2 years ago.
Tonight we were able to take time for all our kids and have a picnic at Logan’s grave. Allie always wants to run and check on his toys when we get here. It’d been a long winter and we hadn’t gotten to check on him with us all together in a long time.
As we were visiting I noticed this green orb floating across my phone camera. I looked around and there was nothing actually there. I looked down at my phone and it was still there. I quickly turned it on video. Thinking that surely I just had it on some filter. As I filled the orb followed Allie and then disappeared.
I’m not one to normally believe in orbs and weird crazy symbolism, but when you’re looking for signs from heaven and wondering where it is and then you see this. It’s hard not to see that as meaningful.
I looked up what green orbs mean, and it symbolizes healing and nature sending healing energy. I couldn’t think of anything more symbolic of where my heart is right now.
Missing you little boy. You are loved and missed to the moon and back.